you know sometimes i just wanna lead a peaceful life.
but, people just cant seems to give it to me.
freedom, is what i wanted all along.
LOVE, is also what i wanted too.
but, my now my freedom is controled by others.
LOVE? also unpredicable.
you say this then after that you change your words.
your father dislike me, although now its abit okay.
but, i dont want like that.
isnt it better if we could go out together then at least eat with each other?
like what we used to do with my mother?
i dont know why, but all of a sudden i feel its important that your father must like me.
in a sense that, i am your girlfriend.
and not treating me so cold.
i tried my best to be good, but just no one seems to understand?
i feel stress, very stress i dont know why.
people to dote on me, especially you.
i just hope when you come out, you be abit more sensible,
think for your future even if we cant last or what.
i just hope you will work hard,
not for me,but for yourself.
at times when i am lonely at home.
i cried, cry why you want do stupid things that land you inside?
i know its my fault, for asking much.
i blamed myself for the sily things you did for me.
iloveyou from the bottom of my heart,
but what did i get in return?
your unfaithfulness, your playboy pattern.
when i cried so much for you, you still can joke around.
i am suffering so much, but yet? i get nothing in return.
i just need your unlimited LOVE, CARE for me
i know i am not a princess...
right now, i am speechless.
i just need you by my side,
telling me its alright, you be there for me FOREVER.
&& till death do we part.
but will this happen?
Labels: emo-ing, i am missing you