I really don't feel a sense of security at anywhere.
No even at home, when slightest things wrong, everything every fault is all me.
I don't know why, really.
I am feeling really stress now, but nobody to talk to.
I don't know what happen, this year is definetely not my year,
Starting of the year, so many things happen to me already.
I cannot take it, the person that i wanted to talk to ain't with me.
No longer with me, and won't be with me any longer.
To CSC.
I know, yesterday tonning you are very angry.
cause, you are just plain jealous.
Though, you don't want to admit, its okay.
I can feel that you care for me, for that time being.
Like that, is enough for me already. =)
Thank you, love.
I know today, you tried to talked to me, but i talked to you in a very XL tone.
I know, I am sorry.
You sat beside me today, but the sit is too hot.
I don't know is cause you no place to sit or you want to talk to me.
But, i am already happy. =)
But, i am happy to know what you tell josh, to take care of me.
make sure i go home, i did go home.
but, i was greedy, i wanted to see you again cause i am afraid tml.
I won't have chance to see you again.
So, i asked josh they all if they want to play lan.
They said okay, but you weren't there.
I am sad, very sad.
But, i kept normal, i know i should not cry and emo and think back about our past.
But, i cannot forget it, every everything.
You might have forgetten everything, but i still remember vividly.
After leaving kr to U table, i totally dont have any mood.
Though, when i left i didn't see you.
But, i was missing you all along, i know you won't miss me.
It's alright, I also know that we wont be back anymore.
Because, maybe your heart arent with me anymore.
Perhaps, you dont love me anymore.
I don't know, only you know the answer.
I don't know what will happen tommorow, i am afraid.
I really am, but nothing can change the facts anymore.
You don't even reply my message.
You dont even want to do anything.
Its okay, i am sorry for everything i have done.
But you are gone, never be back.
Just like how, you will never celebrate my birthday for me.
How you will never reply my messages.
How you won't come back to me.
I miss you, i really do.
Everything i do, its all wrong.
No wonder, you chase me out of your heart, and never look back.
Nvm, enough rubbish.
I just hope you, CSC.
To live happily, for yourself not for anyone.
I never forget you, sarangheyo.
