what a bad day i had today, or rather a stress up day?
i dont know, received a nasty SMS today.
it wrote" eww..bytch euu. ahsong iish moii. dun euu ever dare tu snatch hym away from moii."
&& i called back the number, guess what?
its said "the m1 customer that you are calling is currently unavaliable."
then when i replied back, i said:
'' who are you? bet you are just a xiao ahlian uh? lol, what century le? still type like this?
please, no one type like this anymore. =) i snatch him away from you? okay, if you insist i snatch him, then so be it alright. if you want, he be coming out the next saturday.
message him in the afternoon, text him.
he want leave me, i let him go, i wont cling onto him. okay?
i am not threatening you. "
then after few hours..
she/he replied: " i m ur mother! fuckiing bytch, he alreadi dun luv euu alreadi, y stiill wan tu stick wit hym?
he onli usin euu to wait fer hym onli. he cum out he wiill wan moii mre than euu.
sho just leave hym, he wun say break. wat tyme he cum out?"
then i replied back,
" sorry, i am not good at words. but what i want to say is, i wont say break unless he ask for,
cause i hurt him to much, in the past.
but if he want to be with you, and if those letters things he said is just sweet talk.
i got nothing to say, he want you more than me?
i wont believe unless he say it to me himself.
he is coming out at 10, he asked me to wait for him at yew tee.
so if you want, go there wait for him.
he onced said, no trust no love, simple as abc.
without prove,how am i going to trust what you have just said to me."
then she replied again.
" we c wat n hu he wiill choose. he wiill choose moii de. cause he say to moii b4,
he no feeliing fer euu le. he onli wan tu play euu.
cause euu nice tu play."
then i replied back again,
" he play me? whatever lah, i dont even fcuking care about anything anymore le.
so much things happen le, want play.
play la, not happy? come la.
he want choose you? let it be lah, if you are here just to show off that you are better than me.
or just to make me lose hope in myself, then i tell you,
you done a great job!!
cause i dont have strength to walk on anymore.
i dont even have confidence in myself anymore.
so kindly fcuk off! dont fcuking message me!
wait for him to come out && reunion with him la. fcuk!!"
then she replied back,
"okayys, wiish moii n hym happii n last long.
thx, buaiibuaii."
and, i didnt reply anymore.
&& so here i am crying off my chest.
feeling so hopeless,no one to talk out to,
no one to treasure me.&& make me feel better.
is this what he really want? or is that just a girl who have a huge crush on him?
or they really do have things going in between them?
i am feeling so lost and no confidence in myself.
i dont have the sense of security.
baby, if this isnt true, then prove to me!
my heart is really dying.
7 more days, to be exact now left with 6 more days.
its past midnight already.
haized, baby prove to me...
Labels: i am breaking down soon. =/
