HATRED

2010-01-31T08:24:00.002+08:00

Brother and sister dont like to see me in this kinda state.

I know, esp.

Joshua Hong and Hay, Among all i told you guys most of the things,

and how i feel. I know you all want the best for me.

But, i just needed the time, although i got boyfriend too.

but, you both should know what i am talking about.

Even when my eyebrow just frown, you guys will always know i am not feeling right.

Or even when i just smoke extra 1 more sticks of cig you both also know.

I will buck up, i will.

So, from today JACQ is no longer the JACQ.

I am going to burn away the letters he gave me, i am going to throw the necklace, ring and everything into the sea!

It's time to give him up even he wants to come back.

Cause he dont feel the same way anymore.

Me too, I will buck up.

Thanks for being there, and my darling ann too.

Thanks sis, you are there to help me to block his attack.

Thanks sis, i really love love love you so much!

Hahahas. Okay.

JACQ is changing url soon!

2010-01-30T08:07:00.003+08:00

Had a fun time with cliques today.

was out with ann,ice,mal and me to pool at safra.

then headed to kr, nic, hay,josh,ayie was there.

after ke, walked to 445 coffee shop.

Then stupid things almost happen, then called freston, alex and panda down.

LOL, then headed to 300+ play basketball.

Now, talking to josh online.

and waiting for time to past to go cut my hair!!!

Yeah! i am changing url soon, time to change everything.

&& i am looking for a full time job, =)

2010-01-29T04:02:00.003+08:00

I can't believe that on 270110, i made a wrong decision.

LOL, damn it.

I am feeling damn stress now, how?

Threesome, nb how!

I need someone to talk to, die die die.

&& brother josh injured his leg.

Cause he act smart la, -.-

Nvm, speedy recovery.

2010-01-26T08:05:00.002+08:00

esther: relink
Me: Okay, relinked.
ahwenn: LIMBU want mess you around,haha. go study leix, seriuosly ahbo you'll like me waste 1year... girl,chill uhs
Me: You know what? I starting to love you more than 5 years ago! You are always there for me. Thanks darlinggg.
Bestfriend: happy birthday be happy!!!and i am going back soon le..
Me: Best friend! I miss you know! Thanks! Better go back soon, meet you soon k?
Sokkan: HAPPY BDAY NU ER I LOVE YU
Me: Thanks mummy! ILY
Aiai: Happy Birthday !!
Me: Xiexie!
ahwenn: GIRL, cheer up :]
Me: Cheer up by you! xD
STEPHANIE: HAPPY EARLY BIRTHDAY MINNIE...
Me: Thanks micjkey, very long never see you le.
cassandra: siaobaobao, cheerup. anything can talk to me. love you alot
Me: Thanks, i want to meet up with you soon!
ahwenn: girl , relink : ]
Me:Okay, relinked!
Sokkan: princess how yu liao ! update me leh!
Me: I am fine now, mummy! Meet up soon ley!

2010-01-21T18:35:00.004+08:00

This time, i've moved on.

Really moved on, accepted another him in my life.

2010-01-17T01:06:00.002+08:00

After so many years of in a relationship.

This relationship, is the relationship that i really wanted it to last long.

This is the relationship, that i hate to destroy,

This is the relationship that i hate to give up.

This is also the relationship, that i want to go on forever.

But, now... I am the one who want to give up.

Because, day and night i am just waiting for his text.

But, i never got what i want.

Until on my birthday, He finally gave me the best 18 present.

8 missed calls and 2 message.

I thought on this special days things will patch up.

But, i didnt know in the end, after he got what he one.

He left, without giving me another text or anything.

I numb myself by rotting at home sleeping whole day.

Just to see if he will message me, he never.

Until when i know, he deleted me from fb.

SINGLE.

in his fb, only have 3 girls.

its clear that he've moved on, without me, he is even happier.

Oh, fuck why i am thinking back of the past?

In the past, whenever i want to leave.

He will chase me back, asking me not to leave.

He has change, i know.

Change of heart, change of everything.

I know, now he doesnt feel the same way of how i feel for him.

I still love him know? I really still love him.

But, i decided to end this relationship..

Cause, i have to let him go to make him happier.

He will always have a place in my heart.

A big portion of it, cause he is irreplacable.

Although we keep quarrel, keep having fights.

but, memories between us, is not what you people know.

I know how i feel for him, i know he is going be the guy that i really love once in my life.

Others? They are just making use of me.

I know this guy, will try to make effort to give me what i want.

I really know, remember the mermaid collections i have in my room?

3/4 of it, is he gave me one.

Blame me, for not knowing how to treasure until his feeling for me fade.

I didnt really thought that, i will really choose to give up this relationship.

I deleted everything in facebook regarding him.

i need strength, i need a shoulder.

I need a sleep. A sleep which can make me erase everything that hurt me.

&& sad to say for now.

I am offically SINGLE and unavaliable.

&& i am waiting for a SONG, a song of LOVE.

&& at the same time, waiting for a miracle.

2010-01-14T19:10:00.003+08:00

Do you think he will message me at 12 tonight?

Do you think we will patch things up?

I don't think so, he has already given up hopes on me.

he already said, let the wind flow?

So, which means.. It's impossible.

=) I hope that our relationship will have a change.

But, i dont think we will have a chance to get back each other.

Everywhere i go, everything i do, remind me of you.

I miss you, i really do.

2010-01-13T16:56:00.002+08:00

Nothing i say, can touched your heart anymore.

What hurts me the most is.. the guy that spend 2 year 8 months with me,

can just move on his life without me.

&& its been 2 days without his text.

I feel wrong, damn uncomfortable.

But, there he is, enjoying his life out there.

With some other girls.

Yes, it's time.

It's time i moved on, without looking back.

it's time i should learn to let go.

I should not stay like this,

I should not wish for anything.

I should not even think this is a joke for my birthday.

But, i think like that!

Oh well, nothing i say helps now.

Perhaps, i should really move on.

&& avoiding everything and everywhere i been with him before.

He found the girl in his dream,

As for now, i should dissappear from his life.

I should, avoid his call and text if he calls or text me.

I be changing number soon.

I'll be fine soon, i really hope.

2010-01-10T22:48:00.003+08:00

I really don't feel a sense of security at anywhere.

No even at home, when slightest things wrong, everything every fault is all me.

I don't know why, really.

I am feeling really stress now, but nobody to talk to.

I don't know what happen, this year is definetely not my year,

Starting of the year, so many things happen to me already.

I cannot take it, the person that i wanted to talk to ain't with me.

No longer with me, and won't be with me any longer.

To CSC.

I know, yesterday tonning you are very angry.

cause, you are just plain jealous.

Though, you don't want to admit, its okay.

I can feel that you care for me, for that time being.

Like that, is enough for me already. =)

Thank you, love.

I know today, you tried to talked to me, but i talked to you in a very XL tone.

I know, I am sorry.

You sat beside me today, but the sit is too hot.

I don't know is cause you no place to sit or you want to talk to me.

But, i am already happy. =)

But, i am happy to know what you tell josh, to take care of me.

make sure i go home, i did go home.

but, i was greedy, i wanted to see you again cause i am afraid tml.

I won't have chance to see you again.

So, i asked josh they all if they want to play lan.

They said okay, but you weren't there.

I am sad, very sad.

But, i kept normal, i know i should not cry and emo and think back about our past.

But, i cannot forget it, every everything.

You might have forgetten everything, but i still remember vividly.

After leaving kr to U table, i totally dont have any mood.

Though, when i left i didn't see you.

But, i was missing you all along, i know you won't miss me.

It's alright, I also know that we wont be back anymore.

Because, maybe your heart arent with me anymore.

Perhaps, you dont love me anymore.

I don't know, only you know the answer.

I don't know what will happen tommorow, i am afraid.

I really am, but nothing can change the facts anymore.

You don't even reply my message.

You dont even want to do anything.

Its okay, i am sorry for everything i have done.

But you are gone, never be back.

Just like how, you will never celebrate my birthday for me.

How you will never reply my messages.

How you won't come back to me.

I miss you, i really do.

Everything i do, its all wrong.

No wonder, you chase me out of your heart, and never look back.

Nvm, enough rubbish.

I just hope you, CSC.

To live happily, for yourself not for anyone.

I never forget you, sarangheyo.

2010-01-09T20:11:00.003+08:00

What a 'GREAT' birthday present you give me. This is what you give me for birthday. I really dont know what to say. Speechless, i really dont know what to say, its all crashing down. The nightmare that i dont wish it to happen, finally happen. Why is it all crashing down near my birthday? You dont love me anymore do you? I knew it. Sorry, for everything.

2010-01-06T14:10:00.003+08:00

I don't know how to describe my feelings now.

It's seems like the world has forgotten about me.

I don't feel right, i don't feel good.

How do you feel if your loves one can't accompany you when its your big day?

I don't know, how i feel.

It's just like.. I don't know how to explain the kinda feeling that i am having now.

You promised so many thing, but you didn't fufil your damn promise.

You don't expect me to do everything in your way.

What about me? Do i always have to listen in your way?

I do have my life, I do so many things.

Yet? This is what you do.

I don't know what's wrong with me, Okay.

Shall end here

2010-01-02T02:47:00.002+08:00

Yeah, finally got my SATIO. But i am not posting up pictures today, abit tired. So ya, I will post up on my next post. && Its bibi and my couple phone. He is buying his one on the 10. But, we are exchanging phone. LOL, =) cuteness.

2009-12-31T22:13:00.002+08:00

Today is the last day of 2009, suppose to be very happy. End up, i dont feel happy at all. =/ I dont know why eh. LOL, hahahs. Nvm, going out soon already. Shall update again bah. =) Hmm, I hate this kinda life. && i hate you esp! You must have enjoyed alot. Oh well,its alright. __

2009-12-30T01:17:00.003+08:00

Baby bought dota disc for me already, Like finally after so damn long. =) Hahahs, Took very long time to setup everything. Till now, still settling the things. =) Hahahs, Downloaded,garena,skype and everything. LOL, i am going to train harder! To beat bi in his dota. Everytime also aim me. TMD. Hahahahs. Next item i am gonna get is SATIO. Mummy is gonna get for me. Anw, i didnt get into ite. LOL, =( So, i am going to get a work for myself. =) Alright, shall update again.

2009-12-29T01:04:00.002+08:00

Some overdued photos, Haha!

Dear,Me,Girlfriend.

Me,Zurik&Dear

Me&Dear

Zurik,Baby&Agus

2009-12-27T18:50:00.002+08:00

Celebrated Christmas past few days, it wasnt a good one thou. =) I still prefer last year christmas. It was more happening, and i am happier too. Wasnt feeling quite well yesterday. Vomitted infront of people, OMG. Damn ps. Looked damn shabby last night. I dont like. Many things happened last night too. Make me feel more like changing myself to a tougher person. Asshole. Dont know what to do, I dont think that i will be going out this feel days. Too 'chui' already. I dont know what to blog. Dont know what to say, i just hope. Tommorow will be a better day for me.

2009-12-22T14:44:00.002+08:00

I hate hypocrites people. I hate fake people. Damn it, just 1 look of it and i feel irritated. Damn, thats why i dont believe in others. If you are angry now,perhaps you might be the one whom i am saying. xD

2009-12-21T10:44:00.002+08:00

Recently happen many many things, which i dont want to say. Very stress, everything is not going on smoothly. I dont know why either, from here, i can know who really care about me, who are those hypocrites one, and who are the one adding up my stress. I really know. I need someone who cares more about me rather than anything. Someone who i can share my problems with, someone who i can just show my emotions with, happy, i just laugh happily. When i am sad, just cry heartily. some one who will dote me,understand me more. But.. Things aint not the same. Forget it. =) I miss the gan-dear to dear that i used to know, not the current bi. Come back.

2009-12-18T08:56:00.002+08:00

Hungry, i am always hungry nowadays. Only bi knows it the best. Hahas, finally yesterday. we have some time alone. Went over to shopping, laughing loudly, many more lah. I enjoyed alot. Might be going for movie tonight. Taking result later. I know i am going to fail. But, what can i do? I hope i can get a course i want and is interested with. =) hahahs, if not i am going to find a decent work and work. =) Okay, i am hungry now. -_- Byebye.

2009-12-09T07:23:00.002+08:00

Went over to find bi at his camp, after that went over to chalet to slack with marcus and co. On the way there, some stupid people do stupid stunt. -_- '' Crazy lil bitch. Spoil my mood, luckily dear was there. Then aiya.. many things lah. Went over to swamp, damn scary and eerie. LOL, then back home.. Sleeping soon.

2009-12-06T19:47:00.002+08:00

Supposingly, i am suppose to go find bi at his camp. As he got confine, cant go out. So, i buying stuffs for him and have to deliver down. But then.. I am sick suddenly, having some dizzy spells and a stupid flu. So,bi ask me not to go down. So, we are watching die hard 0.4 now together. Hahs, Me and bi decided to exchange present for christmas. LOL, i know what to buy. But i am scared that he might not like ley. But he wanted that thing once. But, now i dont know. LOL. Hahas! Bought a new guess bag and rebonded my hair. Next week going for colouring. My hair is so damn dry now. I am doing treatment for my hair. =)

2009-12-05T01:00:00.002+08:00

There is this guy whom i known for 1007 days, and this guy who i am with for 946 days. But, now, i dont know what's wrong between us. Because of the smallest things, we can quarrel. Because of the faces we give each other when we quarrel, we can quarrel. Because of what we said can hurt us both, so deep in the heart. Causing us to break on last friday. Now, i dont know what to do, because when he wanted to give up this relationship. I tried my very best to get it back. && when i wanted to give up this relationship. he tried very best to get it back too. But.. Now? I dont know, I wanted to give up very much just now. But, after thinking back of the times we had, i find it really foolish. We both had so many good times and enjoyable time together. Countless of happy memories together. So, i leave the last chance to god. I remember Hongjie taught me a game. To see if you and your boyfriend/girlfriend are really fated to be with you. My cliques should know what game is that. LOL. Okay, back to the point. So, i leave the fate to god, before shuffling the card. I prayed hard to the god to see if we are meant to be anot. && then i start to shuffle the card. && when i took out the first card, it was Ace spade. Which means we are meant to be. I dont know what to say. For now, both of us has decided to give up. I don't know, what has happen to this whole relationship. && yes. This guy is none other than, the guy that i loved most in my life. Well, I leave it all up to him. I am not looking for a perfect boyfriend, but i am looking for a guy who knows what i want and everything. && I know that he is the guy, But.. both of us is giving up. Nevermind, i leave it all up to fate.

2009-12-01T12:36:00.002+08:00

One darling jio me to sabai on the 18th.

Hmm, should i or should i not?

LOL, Let me think if i should really go.

=) Hahahs!

2009-11-28T15:23:00.003+08:00

Seriously, i dont want people to tag me to ask me if i am fine anot.

Because, i dont need sympathy.

When some things are meant to give up.

Please give up, I dont want to hold on things that people dont want to treasure.

But, i am not a safe deposit.

I just want to say that, this time round.

i be stronger, Live on happier.

Without you, =)

2009-11-28T00:25:00.000+08:00

Bye bye, Bye everything.

Bye

2009-11-24T21:40:00.000+08:00

I feel like, no one is there anymore.

This feeling sucks, why must it always befall on me?

I am stress, can anyone help me?

I really need help!

Seriously, i need!

2009-11-20T08:12:00.002+08:00

How does phone look? Chio right? Me&&Bi wanna get this couple phone.

Satio. LOL, this few days have been tonning tonning and still tonning. OMG.

To be exact, since last saturday till now, i have been tonning. LOL, i know.

Very exgerrating. But, its true! I wanna get satio soon!! For my christmas present can bi?

LOL. Shall get my ass to work, like real soon!

Okay, bye people.

2009-11-17T07:46:00.002+08:00

Okay, Just roughly telling out stuff that i been doing. Lazy to post.

Saturday, 14/11/09
went over to Nana house, to visit her. As she just gave birth. Looking good! xD Hahs. Then all the way until 8? Then Me and bi went over to Plaza sing to shop awhile. Then Quarrel, both walk away, went cf find cousin. Then played L4D over there. Then bi come back find me, with that stupid.

Sunday, 15/11/09
Slept all the way until 5.. Was about to meet ping, end up, didnt go meet her. Instead, i met joshua and group. Talked cock, then wanted to go lan, end up me and bi bringing ben to see clothes. Then off to geylang to drink, halfway called ana down. Then many things happen.

Monday, 16/11/09
Met ana, talked cock. Then unhappy things happen,which i dont feel like saying. Then off to meet Josh Hong and Hay. Then marieann came, then joachim, then bi and ben. LOL, slacked for the whole night, send bi back to his camp. Then..back home. Okay, i am tired. Blog another day.

&& Lastly, I miss Pingping. I feel like, i dont have time for her! =( How? I promise soon k? Loves. Hope you are reading my blog, i didnt forget you.

2009-11-15T05:37:00.002+08:00

To this person named: Limbei!! ????

This is what he/she tagged in my blog:
limbei!!: *****!!!stop *****ing ard man...he dnt love u le u understand???

&& fyi, The ***** is bitch
which means the message he/she is trying to say that,
BITCH!!!stop BITCHING around man.. he dont love you le, you understand???

LOL, i dont know why you hate me so much or you are just plain jealous of me.. Like seriously. I don't want to care. LOL, My blog is my own personal stuff, I welcome people to give me any comment, be it negative ot positive. Cause, I am who am i what. LOL, regarding if he love me anot, I don't think you have any right to say anything. Cause you are not him, right? LOL, he may not love me, may love me. Its his decision what. Why are you being sucha KPO to do this tag this. LOL, are you his girlfriend or something? Or gay partner? LOL, Joke! Okay, no offence. I dont wanna care also. && from the way it is now, i think that we are doing fine, I dont need you to give any comment. Cause, i think everyone who read my blog DONT welcome you. Right? Oh, he is right beside me now. Or do you need his phone number? In order to contact him && make you happy by asking him to tell you he love you? or he dont love me? You get the pleasure of it? && what makes you calling me a bitch? When i dont think i offended you? Kindly put down your name that your parents gave you..Not what LIMBEI or whatever. Dont let them down. =) && if i am a bitch, what do you think you are? Let me tell you, Love this thing, is very complicated. You cant predict when he/she stops loving you. So, i dont put much feelings in a relationship anymore. To anyone, Including ahsong, which is my boyfriend. Dont get angry. I get him to talk to you thru tagboard.

&& Be touched, That i post this post specially for you; LIMBEI

2009-11-11T02:03:00.000+08:00

Happy birthday Bi, ahsong.

Happy 20th birthday, this year opened chalet for you, I hope..

You had fun there!

Lastly, I love you bi!

Uploading the photo in the next post.

2009-11-08T23:33:00.002+08:00

T.Huimin: saw you today laoda :> miss you .
Me: LOL, i saw you first! I miss you also!! Meet up one day with all the girls k?
ahwenn: girl , you make things give ahsong eat then me ?? sadded .haha
Me: LOL, he got special previlage ma! I dont know how to spell.
bibi ("v"): tml morning got wad thing eat wor??
Me: LOL, nutella bread, Your favourite.
bibi ("v"): you sleep le?? message you nvr reply.. sadded.. i miss you leh..
Me: Yes, last night sleep already. Very tired ma, You miss me? That's sweet of you. Muack! && i want L4D with you! I want to play!!
ahwenn: :] sign contract !!!!! smile
Me: Sign contract? Okay, with same people k?
RUMIN (: CHEERUP OKAY! <3 Meloveyouuuuuuuu! ^^
Me: Me love you too! Thanks!
Jiamin,: Jacq ! Cheeruppp k ?
Me: I will cheer up! Loves!
rumin: HELLO!
Me: Hello rumin!
Cecilia: Hello mei li de keai
Me: Hello, Mei li de keai. =D wo de keai de meimei! I very long never hear you call me jiejie le.
Sokkan: LOL say until I really horny likethat! HAHA What happen t chiu ~
Me: Your tagboard like so horny like that! Hahas!!
bibi ("v"): bibi, its over le.. hope will start afresh.. don anyhow think le. okie. ily lah, you are really my only one.. tml go where wor?? lol.. blurr.. -,-
Me: Start afresh? I really hope so too! Iloveyou baby. Blur your head!
LAU: hey hey,cheer up ok?
Me: alright! You too aite?
Junguang: cheerup!.
Me: Hahs! I will! How's life?
Lau: haha sure. huh ask him dont jealous HAHA. hmmm when u want? we all plan arh
Me: I anything.. I just want to go out! L4D too!! Its so addictive!
Linlin: Prec. <3 when am I gona see you agn? Imyou.
Me: Precious! I am going to see you like really soon! We must meet up soon k? what i mean is Real soon! k? Loves.

2009-11-03T14:37:00.003+08:00

Is it better if some words are left unsaid?
well, i cant make up my mind..
it's all in a mess now.
if only, we can make things right.
things would not be as difficult as it is now.
Maybe, i should really reflect on my own behaviour.
Like what your 'good friend' said.
I needed the time..

Have you ever felt like crying, but yet your heart tells you not to?
& you put up a brave front infront of others?
Have you ever felt like holding on the hope even when the chance is just, 0.01% ?
& end up getting nothing at all?
Have you ever felt like letting go of something that you dont wanna let go?
& go on with your life?
Have you ever felt like committing suicide, when you dont even dare?
& just to know who really cares bout you?
Have you ever tried to be happy, when you dont even want?
& just get on with the fcuked up life you have?
Have you ever?

I wanna make up right now..
cause we never broke up right now..

2009-10-30T09:28:00.003+08:00

Especially for CSC;ZSQ

I can be easily contented at times, and i can be really fcuked up at times.

Because that's me. I dont have to obey everything you say to make you happy.

Because, i aint your happy pill.

I can be really good at times when i know or feel like i am really being loved by you.

But, all this tricks don't work on me now.

Cause, i simply don't know what shit are you doing behind me.

This is what i get after waiting for you and stuff.

Well, we promised on so many fcuking things. && yet?

What kind of shit you present to me? BULLSHIT!

Asked for the truth, in the end you beat around the fcuking bush.

Guys should really go to hell. Bastard!

2009-10-30T03:48:00.002+08:00

Happy sweet 16 my dear Sister! xD Didnt accompanied you for this year birthday, sorry ya? Hope you dont mind, i will get you a present soon after my pay next week. Hopefully i get it? LOL, bored bored uh. Now at crossfire, doing nothing.. but, stoning. LOL. Tags will be replied when i am free?

2009-10-26T03:29:00.003+08:00

Happy 2 year 6 months anniversary bi!

know you for a very long period of time, glad to know that we are still standing here, so strong! I am really happy! Thou, not long ago we had a quarrel, but you never gave me up! I really do love the way you adores me. Giving me surprizes when i am feeling low, but. Can you make your surprize better? LOL, i know i am greedy! xD && remember what you have promise me? I hope you do! && it's weeks away before your birthday. What surprize to give you? LOL, i know whatever surprize i give you, you wont be touched.. But, now.. My mind really (blank). LOL. running out of idea! God, please give me a smarter brain! xD Hahs, okay, Happy 30 months bibi!

Psst, bi! I want my guess watch for anniversary can a not? Buy watch first. xD

2009-10-25T22:36:00.002+08:00

Back to blog, tag will be replied Below in this post today.

tml is 2 year 6 months anniversary. Don't know what to do sey. I very tired. =/ LOL. very tired! Have been with bi everyday since the day he is out. But, more quarreling happen also. LOL, i also dont know what to do! But, bi will always be the one giving in, even though i am in the wrong. Awww, thanks bi. For tolerating my fcuked-up attitude. You still know me the best! ILY. xD hehehehehe! I am back early today. Look at the time now.. Its only 10.41, but to me.. It's like.. 7.41 only! LOL, Hahs. I am super tired. Alright, i'll reply the tag now. c=

bibi ("v"): bibi, ily alot le. please don so sensestive okie. guai guai.. hao xiang ni lo. you my one and only. i love you <3 Muack
Me: LOL, how can you count how much you love me stupid bi! && thanks for tolerating my attitude and everything. I will try to change a tiny-winy bit of my attitude. Hehs, cause if i dont have attitude, i am not myself anymore right? Hahs! && why you so auto? Tag my blog? You did something wrong? Chey..chey!
esther: mama relink (:
Me: Okay, relinked!

2009-10-23T12:46:00.002+08:00

it have been very long since i last post, so well.. going to post now. This few days, spend my everyday with bi. LOL, tired of seeing him already. LOL, no la.. joking. I can stick with him everyday without fail. Hahas!! Anw, yesterday went over to GIANT. As jiamin wanted to buy some things.. So.. we all went there as a group. Hmm, many things happen luh.. Heard many things.. Notice many things. But.. I also don't know what we can do. After giant went to jiamin house.. Halfway, tinghui when over to basketball court. Left me, bi, Lau, Ping, Rumin and jiamin. Talked alot. Then tinghui came back.. Then all was talking.. Tinghui was sick.. Hopes she recover fast fast. Then, not long after tinghui went back. Then All received message from ivy.. Hahs, ask us where are we. Want meet and stuffs. xD Hahs!! So waited for her.. While waiting, Me,bi,Lau and jiamin. Playing colour catching.. Hahs!! Fun!!Love the cliques that i am with now! Contented with my life now! Especially with bi, Heading to plaza sing later on! Then to chalet. LOL, hope today will be a good day! My head is bursting.. Bi's birthday is coming.. But.. right now, i dont have any idea on how to give him a surprise! How?!?! LOL, going to brainstorm. Alright, i shall end here. Love you all people~

2009-10-23T12:25:00.002+08:00

bibi ("v"): hahas. ily so muchh woh.. hahas. guai guai uh.. muacks. MISSES.
Me: Love you too. xD I very guai already hor! Miss you bi! && you only have this all to say?
RUMIN!: HELLO!! <3.
Me: Hello darling!
bibi ("v"): hahas. imy ily okie. muacks
Me: Yeah, love you and miss you too!
Aiai: Tagged .. See you tonight ..
Me: see you! Loves.
chialeeching: ANG ZANG !!! long time no see uhs . how's life ? i left 52 days... )
Me: Jiayou! Few more days jiu discharge le!! You got number? Contact me leh. Then we go ton!!!
stephanie ong: hi minnie how you miss you
Me: I am fine luh, you leh? You got guai guai inside GH anot? =)
Ping: cafe world until no more blog. LOL!
Me: You KPO for what? I play cafe world own you ma.. Hahas, joke!! xD Iloveyou more than ahsong.. Shhhh, k? hahahs
Lau: JACQ~ lau miss you HAHA
Me: Really not? You miss me, ahsong jealous sia.. He say de.. i never lie!!! Hahahs!!! I want to swimming and bowling and pool!!!!! Please plan a outing please!
ESTHER: i discharge le mama (:
Me: discharge jiu hao! Must guai guai okay? Loves!

2009-10-16T07:30:00.002+08:00

Back to posting..Sorry for not posting people. I have been really tired. =/ So, before i go back to sleep again.. i be posting up this super late picture. && finally took many photo with bi when we tonning, LOL. xD Exam are over, but i dont get it.. why do we still have to go to school? School send me a letter to ask me to go back to school on 20 october until 6 november, to prepare us to advance to sec 5 next year. But, i dont think i can make it.. LOL, this year critria confirm, CMI.
LOL, okay.. i am tired. Going to play my cafe world and bibi's cafe world. It's really tiring.. =( So, i will let the pictures do the talking..

See, this is our bugs!

Bibi's release.

Aiai's

Girl,lau and me.

Lau and me.

Tinghui and me.

Okay, ending it with a picture of me.

Morning people! *yawns! going to get some rest now.

&& fyi, i don't call myself hatred anymore.

Cause, Hatred is not my real name.

I am Jacqueline for now, and always! xD

2009-10-07T15:21:00.001+08:00

Woo, no school today. Last 2 paper, i know i am going to fail so badly for my maths! NB, how? =( going to meet baby soon.. Going to bath and get prepared. Bye!

2009-10-07T00:34:00.002+08:00

Maths paper was difficult today! Angry, did studied abit.. well, abit sad! So, waited for bi to finish work today. Then went around shopping and stuffs. LOL, anw.. saw hongjie and his friend at arcade. Then went to smoke. LOL, then went to find steve. Bring us around in his car, like cool luh. Hahs, then steve send me home, then send baby back to his camp. Cute! xD Hahs!! Okay, thats all for today.

2009-10-05T00:42:00.003+08:00

Yesterday was chinese august 15. Is a big day for me and babe, JIEMIN. Hahs, So.. Bi brought me to chinese garden to have fun with babe, got to know a new friend too, Junwei. Which is babe friend. He seems to get along quite well with bi. Happy. When we got there it was raining, like wth luh. But didn't care much. Headed to the turtle there, bi paid for me and went in to visit the over thousands of turtle. Took many pictures, But.. No time to post up now. Hahs, perhaps tml or when i am free? LOL, Had fun over at chinese garden. Then head to coffee shop to grab somethings to bite. LOL, after finish ordering. We sat down, babe suddenly shout, ouch..Like got something bite me. Then, she sit down and check, suprizingly, she shouted again! Scared all of us, even the bangala uncle behind us.. Hahs, damn funny the scenrio i tell you. Guess what is it? Its a centerpide. That crawl inside her body. Hahs, after that.. Crapped alot. Then babe head home. me and bi head back to tampines 800+ went over to near Ping and cheong house.Sat down there, played cards.. So on. Hahs, then went up to ping's house. Played cards again. Gambling la. Starting me and bi, was losing in the end, win back some. And that stupid Ping.. Seems so excited about people who was kissing opposite the block. LOL, Then around 3+ or 4 + we left. Then walked over to inter.. Then went to mac to slack, bi teached me new magic tricks! Did card reading. Then we gamble among ourself. Hahs! Then after that quarrel with bi cause of a unknown number. Damn that girl, bi already said he is with his girlfriend. Yet, that girl still cling onto him like nobody business. Stupid girl. Idiot you know, angry. Then went to somewhere else.. at night went to eat and shopped around tampines. Tired, going to call bi in a few minutes.. He is going to make me sleep with his fucking attractive voice. Chey, chey. It seems like its our trademark uh now? LOL. Hahs!! Okay, going to call bi now. Bye, i update the photo when babe send me all the photos! Nights, readers! Oh, and i forgot to mention. We went over to arcade today. We saw a girl dancing para! LOL, that girl like crazy de la! People laughing at her, she think its proud. LOL, okay. I know i am bad by saying this. But, it's fucking hilarious! Hahs! Damn it! Hahs! Okay, seriously. Night. *Yawn

2009-10-03T02:59:00.002+08:00

Currently at Crossfire now, with bibi. Cousin is here with his cliques too, i am too cold to do anything, bi is concentrating in playing is dota. While i am blogging right here, Yesterday and today had quarrel with bibi. Haiyo, i dont want to say. But to him, its always my fault i dont know why also. =/ I am very cold, super cold. Very hungry too! LOL, tml is lantern festival, going to celebrate it with my babe at chinese garden. Hahs, alright. Ending here, freaking cold!

2009-10-03T02:44:00.002+08:00

xiaoR: MUMMY!!! call me soon . if dun have mah number , take from emerson. mummy boxim lerh luhhs. wang le wo zhe ge nuer ))))):
Me: I never forget lah, okay. I will take it from emerson soon. Loves, and takecare!
TingHui: So how? want join my one? Don't care csp luhhs, i put a ghost outside her house she forever won't come out le lorhhs ;D i miss your nehneh lehhs ;D TakeCare~!! Loves <3
Me: LOL, i tiongxim, I must respect my CSP! I go her house outside protect her, send her home! Hahs, Make me look like a lesbian sia! LOVE
fiona: sister, imissyou <3
Me: Sis, tell me how long since we meet up! NB, so long luh!
RuMin: Hush hush ley! Nice till want die, lol. (: Btw, hello! Misses, ^^v
Me: Nice right the song. Hahs, I miss you too! Full time slacker sey, hahas!
Angeline: Miss you!:<
Me: Chaotah, i miss you many many too!
Joanna: Linked
Me: Link you up soon, pangzi! IMY
ahwenn: blog about AHSONG && PINGPING jiu shi doesnt have ME !!! sadded lurh
Me: Hahs,cause the message is pingping send me de, so i must put her name, and i want to put to give ahsong ma. You make a touching thing for me, i confirm post de.
ping: k fair! good, <3 you too!
Me: of course i am fair. I am forever fair!
JOEY: RELINK :d
Me: Relinked!
RuMin: Hello! ^^
Me: Hello! Rumin!
ping: miss you ley darling!
Me: Yeah, i miss you too.. Dont drift...
esther: mama HAAPPY uhs FREE GIRL le . tkecare LOVE .
Me: Xiaoxin uh, me miss you many many leh! Iloveyou too!
Tinghui ;D: Tagged Tagged~!! POKER ROCKS!!!
Me: Yeah, poker is our entertainment!
Lau: hmmm prove arh . my ic can?!
Me: IC uh? Hmm, not convising enough, how about take off your pants? LOL!
Patricia: Pekkkk! How're youuuu!? Can't hear your voice inside Gh already. Sian 1/2 lorhhhh
Me: Hi,pat! I am fine luh, i know you miss me! Hahs, Free meet up jiu can hear my irritating voice le! Hahas! Miss ya!

2009-10-01T07:56:00.002+08:00

My bi is back. Woo, happy life indeed. Ton non-stop for the past 3 nights! Woo, and i didnt pang seh my clique because of my bi. We still spend time together de ok! Hahs, i am really tired now. I guess, i wont be posting that often like how i did last months. LOL, so stay tune for more update. Cause i am really tired right now! Got to get some sleep. && bi went back to camp already. Tommorow is Friday.. Where should i go? Oh, and i almost forgot. Saturday is Mooncake Festival. Me and bi are going to Chinese Garden.. Cause, he promised me. So, like yeah! Got to meet my babes at jurong to shop. LOL, i miss my babes, jiemin&&cecilia esp. =D muah muah girls!

2009-09-27T23:27:00.000+08:00

Can't wait, can't wait. Tommorow will be the day that you be out. Super high! Woo, back from work not long ago eh. Me very tired now, but i can't get to sleep. Too excited. LOLOLOLOLOL, went to woodland today. See girl's vini. LOL, damn cute! Hahs, i very tired. Trying to get some sleep. In order to go and see bibi with my best condition. =)

Happy 29th month together

2009-09-26T23:49:00.000+08:00

Back from work again, today went to boon lay to find manager then to jurong east to start my work, happy seh. Did 17 survey today. But, 1 got voided. Cause NS men, Haiyo.. Like sian sia! I ended my work early today. Happy!! 1 clap for me. && saw dave today. LOL, didnt see him, i was smiling to my manager. But he thought i was smiling at him. LOL, he come infront of me i like shock sia. LOL, working went to void deck awhile to smoke, saw a damn tiko pek. NB, cassandra was there too. Actually wanted to meet jiemin, but she kena cut i think? Haiz, Everyone is working now, I miss everyone. Many things happened lah like serious! Don't know what to do. Actually want to go shopping at Jurong point, but.. Tinghui and Lau finish it late. So, cannot. Oh, i got a hair dye today. Called liese Paopao. LOL, very nice, casis berry.Suit my face colour, like it so much. =) Perhaps i wait for bi to come out then dye together. Oh, and here are the graduation day photo that we took together. && happy 29 months together bibi.

Ps: Guys, i miss you all alot. Please, Dont drift. Stay in contact okay? I love you guys! Sisters and brothers! Victor and Derrick too, didnt manage to take photo with you all.

2009-09-25T23:16:00.002+08:00

For once in life, everyone will go through relationship not only once, but finding the trrue love ain't easy. Though everything seems so near,yet so far, but action speaks louder than words. Giving and taking is a process in contributing to a serious and devoted relationship, both party need to share every little things they have, which bond those things in common. Although there'll be frequent quarrels among couples but things like that are likely to bond them closer, giving both party the sense of security and warmth. Arguements it's more to them than meets the eyes, If you ask me why do i love you, i'll remain slient, because i do not need to give you ananswer. Feel the beat, and the telepathy, that's the answer to your question. If i drip a tear into the sea, till the day you're able to find it, that'll be the day i'll stop commiting this relationship. I Love You, ZSQ. Me love CSP aka pingping too. Don't jealous i write to ahsong never write to you hor, fair fair. =)

Okay, anw today went over to toa payoh to work, woah. Toa payoh de people very kind sia, those i ask de, most of them never reject me.. only one luh. I am kinda happy. I am thinking of not working on Monday. Me want to accompany bi. But, if bi accompany me. I don't mind. Hahs! Oh ya, today i do a survey for this guy, who he say he is 31 years old when he look like my age. Damn joke, I ask him what do you like about the ads, guess what he said? I like *pointing at my ads* this, this and this. This 3 picture i like most. I was like, okay. So you like pictures? LOL, joke! Hahs, Then went over kiddy palace to shop shop awhile. Hahs! Cause tired ma, me want to dye hair. Oh ya, If anyone went shopping right.. Saw a hair dye called ''PALTY'' with this colour peachy chocolate.. Please tell me. Okay? I want that colour so desperately! Hahs, and when bi is out me going to dye for him also. Couple hairstyle, Cute seh. Hahs, today at least earn about $44. Hmm, around $1oo inside pocket already. Happy. Oh and it's midnight already. So, Happy 29 months together Bibi. Me love love love you many many. I got many things to tell you when you are out eh. =) see, i kept my promise to blog everyday. Although i did change the time, cause i was back home late. But.. I never ton eh. I kept my Virgin ton to you. LOL, chey.. Sweet seh. Oh forgot to say, today tinghui's friend which is also our working friend. Send us to work, his car damn cool. LOL, but then.. i hate it wen guy cares more about their car. LOL, like joker sia. Hahas, me miss bibi. 3 more days to see you. Happy happy luh. Love and misses by me!

2009-09-24T23:55:00.004+08:00

Back from work, today me, tinghui and sandra work only. Lau never work, cause the manager only bring one things for me only. So, lau bo bian. LOL, work at bedok today. LOL, ask people to do survey. When over to bedok north, bedok inter area, chai chee there. LOL, morning went to school. at around 12 like that, we left school head to derrick house. Then after that slack under block, Played cards. Police screen, another 2 friendly officers. Their aim was not us, was the malay people. And, Jacq.Ang called me, ask if i am working at the chinatown for flyer thing. I said yes, talked crap awhile then hanged. Then after that at around 1.45, went back school for graduation. Well, it was boring, seriously. Me want to sleep. Then during the ceremony, played dai dee, kena caught by teacher. LOL, joke. After that around 4 plus, rush back home to change, and everything. Soon, Tinghui called, and say we so lucky. Cause we be working at tampines. LOL, but did not la. Work at bedok instead, so went around like crazy people asking people to do survey. 1 survey $4, we did 14 surveys. So, at least have $56 already. Have to work for 1 week, tml i be asking for 2o piece. to earn $80. Work continuesly for 1 week, we already have 500+ already leh, tell me. How easy it is? LOL, enjoy sia. After that, i can enjoy my shopping spree! Woo, Shiok sindiri. (LOL)

2009-09-23T22:49:00.002+08:00

Back from work, lame lah sia. Walk so long, no money. No customer, sell pen easier. within 1 hour i can get 1oo plus, i want to work la! tommorow is last day of school for me. Need a job urgently, I dont want waste my time lah. Haiyo, then baby is coming out soon le. No money, sibei sad! I want to work, okay. I got new lobang tml, at chinatown. 1 hour $20. LOL, ask people do survey, hmmm.. wondering how it may be? so easy money? LOL. hungry! Bye, people. sleeping soon.

2009-09-22T22:50:00.003+08:00

Back, went to school today. 2 more days no more school already. Happy happy, after school went home and sleep. Tired, slept until 7. Nb, late for interview! But, I can start working tml le. Happy happy, haiyo. Tired, now. sleeping soon. Anyway, i am really confuse today. =/ alright, bye.

2009-09-21T19:33:00.002+08:00

Back, went to collect my Victoria secret wristlet today. It's really very nice! I like it alot. Then shopped with ana awhile, got many gifts from her. xD Hahs, Then after that went shopping with mummy! She is so good today, bought me a new slipper, a new shoes, a mango tanktop, and a mango long sleeve. So many things la. My stomach is really pain now. I don't know what happen/ Alright, i got to rest now. And, my dearest Baby please be strong inside 1 more week to see me! Be strong, don't get into any trouble. I really want to see you. Haiz, baby. 1 more week, that will be it. okay? Love!

2009-09-20T23:14:00.005+08:00

Back, after blogging early on..Slept till 6 plus. Then played computer games for awhile, then at around 8.4o? Went down to meet ping and cliques. Slack slack slack, played card and stuff, bored uh. Totally no mood, then settle my dinner at 10 plus. LOL, then 11, went over to meet ana. xD Talk alot of things.. Kinda happy. Alright, I can get my Victoria Secret Wristlet tml if i can make it to meet her. Happy!

T.Huimin: laoda ! i miss you alot leh , hahaha !
Me: Hahs, I miss you also! I going back gh one day, to take my health booklet from aunty prema. hahs, meet me up lehs! How's inside? Everything still okay?
Aiai: Tagged . Takecares ..
Me: Hahs, Okay. You takecare too. Miss you.
Jervine; Wanyu (:: Heys girl, long time no see uhs. link me up yeahs (:
Me: Linked. =)
Lau: ya! i good girl!
Me: LOL, You girl meh? Prove? Hahahahas!
PIngping: lau, you girl meh? ME AND JACQ THEN GOOD GIRL. LOL.
Me: LOL, cute! Hahs, Ya luh, You girl or boy? LOL, Hahs!
Lau: We both gd girl haha nvr go out
Me: No, Me and Ping better. Cause you went out with your mum. We didn't even step out of the house! xD
Sokkan: PRINCESS IS HERE T TAG YU
Me: I am the princess, You are the queen okay!! Hehs.
Junguang: I'll tell you the malay word in school.
Me: You so bad, I know the malay word le. How dare you! =(

2009-09-20T14:38:00.002+08:00

Woo, slept quite late last night. Super tired now, have to eat that stupid medicine everyday. I don't like, hmm. Anw, yesterday i bought a bra strap, look kinda nice. LOL, and then today. Me and ana was bored.. So, we shopped online! Yeah, so guess what i pamper myself with? LOL, a Victoria secret wristlet, Super chio! It's in Pink! Same colour as my PSP luh! Hahs, So me and ana went over to the nearest POSB to transfer money. xD hopefully by monday we will get it, i'll update the photo of the wristlet below, Hahs, kinda cute. I am so tired now, yesterday went to many places. LOL, i have to go to clarke quay next week again! I am so gonna buy the lingerine. xD So nice luh, && baby will have to pay for the expenses. LOL, hahs. Bibi, 8 more days to see you. Happy? So am i. After you are out, we can challenge dota luh, i sure own you de. Chey chey, hahs. I cannot win you de la. xD Hmm, going to take a nap again, At night, i be back to reply tag and update more of what i did today. xD See my new wristlet! Chio right! xD

2009-09-19T11:34:00.001+08:00

Oh, got back home quite late. reached home at aroud 1.2o a.m. But have to adjust the date. Cause i have to update EVERYDAY. Hahs, went over to jurong today.&& to my surprize, today is 19 again! =( Close people should know why 19 is aa important date to me. Lau&&cassandra what i want to say is Thanks alot. && same goes to Rumin,Tinghui,Ping,Meijuan,Desmond&&jiemin. Hmm, so left jurong at around 12.3o? Then head to Holland road, cause cassandra want to see her future workplace. Then head to central, to look for ana. xD Had fun in her lingerine stall. Slacked at her workplace almost the whole day, Played old maid there, Then try out bra, the bra there damn nice and sexy i tell you! So gonna ask baby buy for me, Chey chey. Then did hairstyling over there. I permed ana hair and cassandra hair, cute seh. xD Hahs, Today again, i saw many many 26, baby must be missing me and counting down 9 more days to see me, and most surprising thing is... Once baby step of out CPC, I'll be the first one to see him! && the first person he see when he come out, will be me! Cute right? Hahs, Slacked with ana after that, talked many things, about family stuff many stuff. Stress uh! hmm, i am tired already. Oh ya, I bought the sticky sweet already. Will be putting it in a bottle for baby. Cool uh ? Hahs, I know! muack, night babes, Night Hubby!

2009-09-18T22:40:00.002+08:00

I am back, Went school today. Had our last P.E lesson, it was fun overall, played basketball with victor and hongjie, But played with them awhile only. Then headed to play Captain's ball, played with Sec 2. Damn pathetic la. LOL, first time see so arrogant Sec 2. LOL, So we make them angry. xD Keep disturbing say they fell down. LOL, Funny luh. After that had english lesson. Did nothing, after english. Skipped class with Vic,hongjie and lau. Slacked at G.O, then they went to play basketball. Then sit there stare. Bored la, then after that went for recess. After recess, Skipped lesson again. Went to library, Mr chng let us in the library. Cool sia, cause we very hot at that point of time. xD After school head to Junyuan to look for darlings. Then Lau tompang me cabbed home. Me watch the ugly truth until fall asleep. LOL, then woke up. Watch tv and use computer till now. && From tml onwards, i be countdown 9 more days. Single digit! && tml have to go to Jurong. OMFG, stress!! =( Alright, Baby i am still waiting for you, come back soon. Hubby. xD

2009-09-17T23:29:00.002+08:00

Didn't attend school again, overslept. Slept till 12 noon today. LOL, then after that head to prepare then meet up with lau off to junyuan secondary to find my darlings. xD Played poker, Had fun! Used poker and played Donkey too. Hahs! Cute cute! Then after that, head back home again. After back home,watched show, 8.30 went down to look for my Jiemin. She at my house downstair, accompany her awhile. Then cab to 800+ Halfway, drop jiemin halfway as she is going back to jurong. Then met Victor, helped him with his stuff that he doing for his girlfriend. Giving him idea. It turns out quite well, xD Happy happy. Then talked about many things, inm short form we gossip about people. LOL, didn't expect to be so fun luh! & Vic told me that the fcuking gradution day have to study as per normal, after school then start graduation. But, the graduation i don't want to talk about it. After that, talked about baby. Hmm.. xD Vic was saying to ask him to be good. xD Don't be like *ahem. LOL, then cabbed home. =) So, here i am now blogging. I be fetching baby to give him a suprise! xD Hahs! Update tml! xD Bye reader. Bye Bi!

2009-09-16T22:00:00.004+08:00

Went to school today, never go out of school early. School ended at 1.45. So, went home prepare. But, guess what i saw? LOL, i saw baby's letter! So, i tried to use a ruler to take it out. But, it did not work. I went home asked my sis for a long ruler. LOL, tried to ''kiap'' it. But, it didn't work thou, thus i went home again to take scotchtape then ''tiak'' it. That's how i got the letter. Cried luh.. Too touching. So after that around 4.3o went out.. off to jurong. To check for something, to my surprise, its.... LOL. Hmm, i am happy today, and baby is coming out on the 28 right? LOL, i know you gave me 3 clue on the letter. xD i managed to see it. Hahs, ILY baby. && I am fine my boy. xD hahs, i am glad to know that you are fine inside. Don't worry about your girl too. She's is fine. Ariel? I update you more when you are out. :o hahs, I cannot eat full full. Hmm, inconvient to say here. I'll update you again okay? I promise. xD

2009-09-15T23:12:00.002+08:00

Went to school today, real boring i tell you. The moment i step to class, i feel like sleeping. After 2 period, was chemistry. Teacher not there, so me,lau,victor and stephen was sitting outside the General office, talking cock. LOL, then when walking to find victor, i shouted OI! LOL, stupid dog follow what i say. LOL, joke. =D Then halfway, went out of school. Cause too boring. Played poker with cliques. Fun, fun fun! Really! xD Then reached home, slept. Really too exhausted. =( then now here, blogging. so now going offline le. *Yawn. Night Bi.

2009-09-14T23:13:00.000+08:00

Skipped school today, find that it's boring. But i have to go tommorow, went over to pasir ris awhile, checked somethings. Then head to 800 plus, Played poker. Police screen, the police that we met, is the friendlies police i ever met. They agreed too, LOL. Cause, they thought we gambling. But we not, LOL. played many games. DaiDee, Bluff and Murderer. LOL, Tired sia. && ate fish&co express at downtown. Omg, Sucks like hell. Waste my money! Feel like vomitting sia, when i eat the fish. Got a stupid smell, Close people should know i don't like the smell of fish. LOL. Hahs, Oh well. I am tired, okay going to sleep already. Night people. Night Bi.

2009-09-13T18:42:00.000+08:00

It's another boring Sunday at home, I bet Pingping agrees. We both have been watching tv the whole day today! Bored, Mummy went to work today. Daddy went to work also. So, left me and sister at home, I been inside my room for the whole day, unless i need to go to the toliet. LOL, sometimes when i am alone at home. I be taking out the albums to have a looks, and even take out presents that baby gives me. See it one by one again and again. It's really sweet okay. && I've notice that baby caught a total of 18 plushies from the UFO catcher or machine something? LOL, then baby wrote a wholestack of letters for me. Made a Calendar for me, with our pictures and Mermaid! && my favourite of all is a scrapbook that he made for me. Cute not this guy, LOL. Sometimes, I do things for him, although he never ever shows that he likes the gift, or never really shows he is really touched. But, i do know that he is touched in his heart. Only, he don't like to show it out. But, i do really hope that one day he will show out all his feelings, and tell me how he really really feels in his heart. But, i know it's not possible. Cause, Whatever i do to him. He will only keep in his heart. That's one thing i don't like about him! Lol, i remember during 2oo7 that time, one of my friend Kahwei's birthday. Me and Baby had a tiff, that time we just got together. Then because of some people who said thing about me and my ex caused baby to be angry with me! They said what, if i was given a chance to go back to my ex, will i? Obviously is no right? That person told Baby that I said yes, and I gave a immediet yes! So, baby was like.. WTF. Then started quarrelling.. of course. That time de baby couldn't bear to leave me, cause he love me to the max. But, he kept asking me to go. I remember i told him a super touching word, that made him cry. That's when i know that baby has really fallen for me. Well, i just said, '' everytime quarrel you also never let me go, why must i let you go now?'' Well, I don't know why either, Things are different now? Like, Baby never tells me how he feels now, and everything. && Now every few words we said can make each other quarrel. I don't like! But he don't understand. Whenever i asked him to fetch me back hostel last time, he will accompany me. But not now anymore. But it doesn't matter. Cause i discharge from gracehaven already. But, will Baby treat me better after he is out? Or will things get worst. I know, we won;t get married or so.. Although Baby keeps saying that he wants me to marry me. But, i know that's all bullshit. Cause he don't mean it. But, I don't know why.. I just.. don't know how to say. But will he change when he is out? Or he change only when he come out the few days? Or he don't even miss me when he is inside? If thats the case. Then, I don't know what to do either. Alright, i said alot already. That's all for today. Bye, readers!

2009-09-12T11:08:00.000+08:00

Well, today rot at home for the whole day. Until at night, went to t1 for awhile, to order something also. xD Hahs, Monday still have to go to school. How boring is that? LOL, only until graduation day then no need go to school, Damn it. xD I don't think i be going out tommorow. But i need a new slipper. My slipper going spoil. LOL, alright! Bye people. Stupid, bi! IHATEYOU.

2009-09-11T23:53:00.000+08:00

Went to Chai chee CC to sing k today, well it was fun overall. xD Haiz, I feel very stress now luh, Just now went over to 800+ to slack. Played cards, And so on.. Forgot what i did already. LOL, hahas, Went i was back home, mummy and daddy is sleeping. I bet they are very tired. LOL, Fuck. I still haven receive Baby's letter. WHY!~!~

2009-09-10T17:42:00.000+08:00

I am a good girl today, didn't go out today. xD instead, i slept at home for the whole day! MY head was so heavy for the whole day, many many things luh. Tommorow going out, i was thinking if should i go out? Haiz, But i should be going out bah. Tinghui text me, ask me go out, LOL. I was sleeping, that's why no reply. Wondering where the rest go today? I only know that only me and darling stayed at home today. xD Lau,Tinghui and rumin, i don't know. Hahs! Okay, i lau never go out, only she have to go out for dinner with her mum later. Hahs, Anw, Less than 3 weeks baby will be out! xD Hahas!

2009-09-09T22:16:00.000+08:00

Today's date very nice uh? 090909, Hahs. Anw, today was english paper. I don't know what to say about it luh. -_- Like so difficult de. After that went home, actually wanted to stay at home and sleep. But then, ping said she want see doctor, so i accompanied her to see doctor at simei. LOL, there was me,rumin, lau and ping. LOL, after that head to tampines to meet tinghui. LOL, I've got to prepare things for something. LOL, okay i am done with blogging here. Oh and anyway, i dreamt of hubby. LOL. cuteness. Okay night people!

2009-09-09T00:11:00.001+08:00

Back from jia tuo, LOL. Today had chinese LC and Social Studies Paper. For chinese LC i have many confident. But, for Social Studies. Confirm Flunk. So many people also say difficult. Haiz, I am still feeling stress. Cause of something, NB luh. I don't know what to say. -_-Nevermind, I am still waiting for baby. Bye people.

2009-09-07T11:04:00.000+08:00

Well, Chinese paper was easy today, i believe it was Baby's love that made me feel not anxious. xD Hahs! I miss Baby! && after paper 2, i went to do pedicure with darling. LOL, i choose a purple colour one. And, straight after my N level, I be doing my medicure. xD Those gel on, Yeah. And as for a reward, Baby will pay for me. Cause i know, he will and he will dote me alot. xD Darling and tinghui came over to my house today. After that went over to 200+ then head over to 800+. Met Victor there, have a chat there. LOL, stomachache! x( && i decided not to renovate my room, cause i be moving out to stay with Baby, Cause he say he can't stay at that home. So, i be staying with Baby. I am looking for a unit where is convience. But have to wait till Baby is out. Haiz, i miss baby! =(

2009-09-06T18:03:00.000+08:00

Junguang: Woot!. Finally change your picture.
Me:LOL, This picture can le uh? xD Hahs, Anw what is your email? Give me, i add you in msn.
c.leeching`: good uhs. discharge liao
Me:Eh Ang Zang, you dont spoil my tagboard with your bai dai ley, Erxin sia. I miss you alot luh, when i discharge that day, i never see you. =( You don't know die go where!
Lau: i not high. but sad
Me: Why sad? Anything you can always tell me you know? Tell me okay? && don't forget 1 oct! xD
Junguang: I don't know how to spell the malay word. Start with 'P'.
Me: Malay word? Which malay word? LOL, Better don't make me paiseh uh!
PIngping: Did you miss me? cos you can't see me ytd.
Me: LOL, don't BHB ley, who miss you sial! Is you miss us bah, LOL, can't wait for tuesday getai! xD

2009-09-06T13:48:00.000+08:00

Well, stayed at home today. Be a good girl, as i feel like sleeping. But, now i feel like getting my pedicure done. =( Might be asking darling to go with me. But have to see what she say. LOL, after pedicure, might be going to buy shoes, then head to furniture store with mummy and daddy to hunt for my new furniture. LOL, Wondering when should i buy. What kind of decor should my room be. I dont want to look pinkish, cause it will look like a barbie's room. But, Most of my stuff is all pink, cause baby likes to buy pink stuff for me, cause he say, i am very tom-boy-lish. So bought me pink stuff to make me look like a girl. But, i think that didn't work?? LOL. I might be having this 3 main colours in my room. Cause it looks cool. 1st, Red. 2nd, Black. 3rd, Pink. I mean i have no choice. Cause majority of the present baby gave me is all in pink. So, i have to make pink 1 part of my room colour. xD Or maybe even purple and black? Cause Baby like it, =/ I even intend to ask artist to draw a mermaid in my room. Should i? Daddy is saying that i splurge too much. LOL. =( A few day ago, a private number called me, and when i say hello, that person hung up. LOL, i don't know if i am thinking too much or what. But, I hope that it was Baby who called. But, sad enough. It's not. && 'N'level is tomorrow. =( Going mug soon. =x Tatas people. Baby, Give me strength to do well tmr. ILY,ZSQ.

2009-09-05T11:07:00.000+08:00

Went over to 842 to watch getai, the getai not that nice la. =) awaiting for tuesday getai at chaichee. Got jia tou there, =( I am still worried. How? It doesn't seems like it's taking effect. Please, Please. Help me! Baby, i got many things to tell you. how? =( Work ia cancelled. Hate it la. I miss you. Come back soon, i am still waiting!

2009-09-04T11:50:00.000+08:00

Well, went to school today. School is getting boring-er. Don't have much feeling to go to school. && monday is 'N' level. Hope i can do well. Just now, went over to slack with Lau, Tinghui and Rumin. LOL, then got people have conflict with some people. Like lame la, then come here accuse us. Tmr got work to do, Bored ar. =( Have to work and save money for myself. Hehs, so many things to do. But no cash $$. Alright, sleeping soon alr. xD Imissyou baby. No mood to study just now. =(

T.Huimin: ssb wont catch you the , they bu gan the . haha miss you !
Me: LOL, why they bu gan? LOL, i also not their who. Hahs, I miss you too junaide. Spell correctly?
Junguang: Here's your tag!. Pek Pek.
Me: LOL, why add the pek pek? So nan ting! =(
3 Sep 09, 00:49TINGHUI~!!: boos~!!
Me: Boo back, Enjoy-ed slacking with you, Jiang wang ye! *claps xD
Lau: i happen to listen to that song. eh dont stress or sad
Me: I try not to be stress. LOL, happen to listen to that song. Then you high?

2009-09-03T23:10:00.000+08:00

Gave school a miss today, slept at home for the whole day, then after that woke up at 12+, get up to bath. And then prepare everything head to 8oo plus to ping's house to have dinner. LOL, Tinghui really can eat alot luh! LOL, after that went to study. LOL. Abit tired now. Have to rest. Goodnight people. && Baby, I saw many 26 today. I bet you miss me alot today. xD hahas. IMY.

2009-09-02T20:52:00.002+08:00

How? i am so stress now? =( Baby, why aren't you here? I can't handle this all by myself. It's too much for me to handle it. Today is really not a good day! I don't like today. Firstly, It's wednesday. 2 weeks past already, But still i haven't recieve your letter. I don't know why. Secondly, Joanne sister went in. We just got close not long ago. But, you went in. 11 september is your birthday, planning to go out. But, you see. What happen? Haiz, sis. I hope you takecare. Everyone that i care for is going in. Wah, FUCK. Then thirdly, I don't know how to say. Baby, seriously, help me! && chalet will be at aranda country club. But, i have no mood now. Thats all for now. Baby, please faster come back!

2009-09-01T22:44:00.000+08:00

Went over to changi today, went to look out for the chalet around there. Seen many but only 1 caught my eyes. But, unfortunately that one is not for public. Is for NSF regualar. Well, might be asking people to help me to book that chalet. Omg, that chalet looks so grand! Have the best view of sea view! Damn breezy, Baby will sure like that place alot. xD Haiyo, and another ideal place is Aranda Country Club. Damn cosy. LOL, i like alot. Really. xD Lau will be asking her mother to help me to ask. xD I be doing a invitation list soon. && i be having a Buffet instead of BBQ. Cause i feel that alot of people might not want to BBQ? LOL. So tml, i be going to Pasir ris to take a look on the chalet right after school. LOL, I be asking many people to the chalet! LOL, got many entertainment that night! Cause i found the entertainment. Pole dancing, Forfeit. Many many more la. Anw, when over to slack today also, Played Old maid, Snap (don't know how to play) and happy family. LOL. Alright thats all for now.

JOEY: miss !
Me: I miss you too Mummy!
Lau: boom boom pow!
Me: huh? what Boom boom pow? You want that song?
Pingping: haha, that passerby so cute wor. got so x within a word! xD
Me: LOL, you so mean hor? People only got many x behind you talk so much. LOL
passerbyy: ii meanx did somethiing happen?
Me: I understand.
passerbyy: euu look sweet wit urx boyfriiendx, last long with him, and where did somethiing happen why euu keep countdown? takkexcarex
Me: Thanks, i will last long with him. Ya, something happen. Thanks for the concern, But i think this is my boyfriend personal stuff, and i tihnk it's quite obvious already?

2009-09-01T13:36:00.000+08:00

Aleanor: hi hi, link me up. (;
Me: Hello, =) Linked le. Do take care!
Pingping: relink (:
Me: Relinked.
YanTing: Woahhhhhhh! Discharge already! I'm happy for you. Be good alright! Loves and misses
Me: Hahs, Thankyou! You also must guai guai uh, Dont zuo pai le! Then can faster discharge. 2 years, very fast de. JYJY.
T.Huimin: ya la , you laoda mah heheh , ok ! i will guaiguai the . discharge le must not forget us , must come back visit ! miss
Me: LOL, later SSB come catch me. LOL. I will come back visit de, no worries okay? I miss you all many many. xD
mickey: minnie i miss you ....
Me: Mickey, i miss you too uh, guai guai inside. I'll wait for you to discharge. Guaiguai.
fiona: sister <3 imissyou (:
Me: Sis, I miss you too, like what you say. we must meet up soon. Love you.
ahwenn: you like that say me , humph. next time dont buy you things and pei you go rounding to see where they are le. :[ always ps me then i stick with lau , sadded .....
Me: I say you what thing? LOL, I never ps you. I got talk to you hor, Cannot say i ps you. XD

2009-08-31T11:50:00.000+08:00

See, this is our very first photo. *Loves

Baby bought this for me on his first work pay.
*So sweet right? xD

Not long after, I went in girls home.
so that explain my short hair.

out first dating after i went out from girls home, Esplanade.

After that Baby went in army, His first book out.

Baby sending me back hostel. xD *Happy

Baby's favourite hangout. *Inside joke

On the way to shopping.

See, baby play the catch bear thingy.
&& ended up with 1 big pig and 2 small pig.
Because, pig represent him.

&& now, i miss him terribly. =( this few days, have been outside till quite late. I miss baby like so much luh. I never intend to ton because baby is not tonning. =( so, i have to save my virgin ton after discharge with baby. && both of us celebrate together. So sweet right? Hahs! Webcamming with Pingping now. That idiot keep want capture me! LOL, alright, I miss you Baby, Do come back soon. I miss you many many. xD

2009-08-30T23:37:00.000+08:00

Bored and tired. Many things have been happening nowadays. My family now have problems of so many things.. How? Oh my god, Baby why aren't you here? Tmr is teacher's day. Got performance, I want to see. But, it don't look nice? LOL. Joke! Anw, I still miss baby alot. Come back soon alright? ILY baby.

2009-08-29T23:53:00.001+08:00

Back home at last, my eyes hurt so much la. I dont know why either, perhaps is due to wearing of contact lens for too long? LOL, tired. Tommorow i have to go to pray my grand parents. Or something? Have to get up early. now is already 11.55. && I haven't receieve Baby's letter. I don't know what is wrong, or he just don't want write letter to me. Oh well, just forget it. If he ain't keen to send letter to me, why must i still carry on to wait? Or perhaps is i think too much. I just got so many things to say to you. But yet, I don't know how to start. Gastric is so pain, I don't know why. I have been eating. But, it just hurt so much. I don't know what to do eh. && finally we get to watch the pleasure factory. LOL, that show is like joke la. So damn boring, have no meaning at all. Waste money. Tired me, Sleepy me. && should i change to tumblr instead? Blogger have big problem, can't even upload the damn photo. =( '' If things is suppose to happen this way. even if how hard we tried to change it, it will still be the same right? '' Karma is falling back. Real fast, like a tornado. Thank you, because i have change for you, ZSQ.

2009-08-28T23:37:00.000+08:00

Went to sing k after school, went home and change. Went back at 9 plus? Went slacking with eileen,Hongjie, victor and myself. After K, head over to meet Ping, Tinghui,Rumin. I was with Ana and Lau. So head over there. Slack for quite a long time. Bought ice-cream. So huge la. -_- Hahs, Then was about to go home, got people singing Getai. So, stopped there. Watch, LOL. After that funny things happen luh. xD Alright, and now I am back home. Tired. =( I miss Baby many. But, still no miracle. Haized, =( I know, Baby's father will never bail him out. But, no worrys. I am still here, never will i run away. =) ILY, muacks muacks.

passerby: Hi... congrat for ur dscharge
Me: You are? & Thanks by the way.
Lau: haha two joanne!
Me: LOL, correct ma. No meh? Is 2 joanne mah.
T.Huimin: laoda , today discharge leh ! loveyou and miss you (:
Me: Laoda ley, Hahs! I love you and miss you too. Please take care of yourself inside. okay?
ahwen: DISCHARGE ~! tml singing k , happy ?? eat the freaking brownie before it spolit and i liked became naggy , keep on asking you eat before it turn bad :[
Me: Yeah, happy happy. Eat le luh. You so naggy, i don't like! Hahs!
JOANNE: CONGRAT ON UR DISCHARGE DATE (=
Me: Thank you! xD Happy happy!!

2009-08-27T23:53:00.000+08:00

Well, Finally i am free girl. But, I am still not that happy. Today i went back gracehaven, aunty kamala thought i coming back today. So, she ask me to have tea-break. But, suddenly aunty julia came. Then say i discharging today. Then aunty kamala say, what you doing here. LOL. i laugh sia. LOL, aiyo. I don't know la. Haiz, feeling ain't the same when you aren't here to celebrate with me. So, when out with 2 joanne today and pingping. LOL. Went over to slack. Bored. =/ So, that's all today. I miss baby! x( && there is a public holiday for hari raya. So, baby will be out on 1oct! Wee. so, is 35 more days!!! LOVELOVE

2009-08-26T21:12:00.003+08:00

esther: relink .
Me: okay. xD
esther: mamama going discharge le imy
Me: I will miss you too. Please be good and finish your last few weeks xiaoxin.
ahwenn: 1more day to discharge :] happy for you , remember fri , me , you , ah'kian . alright ?? ; no dua ok ?
Me: Okay, sure! xD Won't dua de lahs! hahs! Thank you for the wishing too girl.
Lau: coming back tmr
Me: In the end, geng sick out! LOLs.
ahwenn: cheers you up but still dontwant eat !! sadded
Me: too full to eat lahs, so wait until very hungry luh.
Jiahui: I miss you Boyfriend!!!!!!!
Me: Girlfriend, I Miss You Also.
XIAONA: pangzi , i miss you . call me soon alright ? same number . no change
Me: Pangzi, i will call you soon. =) No worries.
ahwenn: :] waiting for you to sing k and extend hair after n-level . the time now has already past 12 , so 5more days to your discharge ......
Me: LOL, so good countdown for me? xD
Sokkan: seebee, reply other ppl's tag,never reply mine. Wah daughter like that ah Me: Sorry mummy, That time i was having MIA, Thats why i didn't reply you. Sorry yeah! xD Much love, Daughter.
Lau: my head cant boo. OPS!
Me: LOL. xD

2009-08-26T19:46:00.000+08:00

Happy 2 Year 4 Months Anniversary Baby. Too bad, no miracle befall on me. You just aren't here with me. I bet, you won't be there for me tommorrow for my discharge too. It's just I don't want to believe that you're gone. You said, you be the one who will accompany me and the first one to celebrate with me. But, now. Where are you? I know, you won't come out tommorow, I know. But, I am just that foolish to lie to myself that, you will come, you will come when you will not. Everyday, the fcuking damn ass phone is so quiet. Everytime call your phone, it will always be '' Starhub is unable to get a respones ... '' When will i ever get through the fcuking phone? 2 Years 4 months not that easy to come through together. We promise so many things, But.. How many things did we fufil? I freaking miss you! So please, Come back soon. Haiz, Tommorow I know, it's not possible for me to see you or to even think about it. Because, I know it won't happen. && it's wednesday already. I haven't receieve that god damn fcuking letter, how many more days do i have to wait to receieve this small yet warming letter from you. Can't government make the postman to work harder? Why must a letter be delayed for few days then mailed out? Idiot! !Q@#$%^&

2009-08-25T21:04:00.000+08:00

Back to blogging. =( Haiz, baby is still not out yet. So, i doubt that he will celebrate my anniversary with me and celebrate my discharge with me. =( &i haven't receieve Baby's letter. What's happening? Okay, now i am so confuse. People say Baby might not go in CP, instead he go in QRP. So now, where on earth is him? LOL, Baby when you are out, i have to tell you something. I don't know what is happening. But, Sometimes.. I can feel that or hear that you're talking to me. I don't know izzit 7th month that why i heard things. But, i really feel that, i can feel you. =/ weird. I am so sleepy nowadays. I dont know why either. Got to play my viwawa. =D anyone playing viwawa? Add me at ( jacq_26o4o7 ) Thank you! Baby, i miss you!

2009-08-24T20:28:00.000+08:00

Well, today is definetely not the day for me. Almost got into a fight. LOL, After school straight away went home bath and change. Went to bedok with aiai, ana to find eileenDEAR, wenshan,wenya and jojo. after that went to eat, after that went to slack, almost tio screening. But girl ask us to go that's why never kena, LOL. Was so bored in school, No people pei me. Forget it la, i don't want to care anymore. =D I haven't receieve Baby's letter. =( Haiz, I want to see baby la. Oh ya, i finally count le!! Baby's actual release date is 18 october. But if minus off weekend, Baby will be out on 2 October! =D hahas!! I am sick now, okay. So like i am looking for a job now. xD Anyone can intro to me? Later meeting girl for awhile. As she want to pass me things. I hate running nose. Tml ling will be going school. So, Yeah. Tml got 1 khaki to do bad thing. xD hahas! Baby, i am still here. Checked the letter box, no letter ley. Hmm, when will i receive sia! =( I hope to see you soon. Oh, ana came to past me a brownie. =D Happy, that really do cheers me up! =D But, what i really want is Baby t appear infront of me. =D Baby, i miss you~ Do come back soon. Hope your daddy will bail you out!

2009-08-23T20:44:00.001+08:00

Slept at 4 am last night. Couldn't get to sleep, miss Baby so badly. So, i woke up at 1o plus today morning. Was kinda bored la, Haized. Bored to death! Then around 3+ went to meet my mother went ikea to look for furniture! Yeah, done with looking at the furniture,Happy happy! But, Next sunday have to go another furniture shop. =) To do a final checking. xD Super excited, Well. Went Baby is out, hopefully my room is beautifully done. So, did anyone help me to count the days for me? LOL, i dont know how to count ley. Girl never read my blog, so cannot help me count. =( Leg cramps. 3 more days to anniversary. 4 more days to my discharge date. Will miracle still befall on me? I really just want this miracle, that is. On my discharge day, i can get to see him, or receieve Baby's letter. I be satisfied. =D Just finish webcamming with the stupid Keai, LOL. Bored. I want to see Baby soon. I miss you! Iloveyou Many too. LOL, now eileen dear told me that CP can minus off the weekend which means minus 18 days. So, now is 43 more days or 38 more days? =( Someone tell me please!

2009-08-22T22:50:00.000+08:00

Today is saturday, which means it's the first weekend without you. Left with 8 weeks 1 day, to see you. If you are here with me today, first thing in the morning we will go simpang bedok. For whatever reason, right? Haiz, So i went to meet cassandra in the morning, as cassandra came to tampines to find max. So, i went to meet her. Then i ask ana to tagged along? As she want to find job, Me too. I have to buy many many things. =D Haized, I bought a electronic eyelash for $5.9o. I miss baby! I really miss you, come back soon.&& Can someone tell me how to count the days till he is out? From what i count from the calendar, he is left with, 62 Days. But if count from 8 Weeks, 1 days. He is only left with 57 days. So, which is true? Any kind soul can help me to count and kindly help me. =D && his actual discharge date is 23 October 2oo9. Do help me please, Thank you very much.

2009-08-21T23:04:00.000+08:00

Supposingly, i am suppose to be at GH now. But, ahma let me home today. Well, I thought i could have a talk with babe today. LOL, but i went home. Haized, I am very sad la. Someone help me please? =( Everyday i have this feeling that Baby will come out. But, everytime i dissappoint myself. Was so tired the whole day today, But everytime i fall asleep, stupid people kept calling my house phone. Make me wake up, Find my parents, sell houses all the rubbish __ I miss Baby la! Went dinner with daddy and mummy. Before that went to find lau awhile. =/ Haized, i am bored now! Baby, still haven answer my call. =/ I don't like, i don't like! ZSQ, come back soon, 5 more days to our anniversary, 6 more days to my discharge. Please appear infront of me now! Baby, i miss you.

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2009-08-21T11:06:00.001+08:00

2009-08-20T23:05:00.000+08:00

School ended super early today, after school went over to BK to meet jiashan, when we are about to leave the school gate, shervelle told us that, got people jump down the building, at BK that side, OMG. scary la, somemore, its 7th month now. =( super eerie, 1st day of ghost festival, got people jump down building. Today, same still kept calling baby phone, hope that there will be miracle. 6 more days to our 2 year 4 months anniversary. Haized, and another 7 more days will be my offically discharge date, my only wish is to celebrate with you. =( I hope you beout by then, i won't give up this 0.01% of chance, i will keep calling everyday. Without fail, I am going back hostel tml. Bid my last goodbye to my clique in hostel, many things to tell ahma too. =D although sometimes she very unreasonable. But, She is still the best! without her, i don't think i can cook nice sambal chicken! Hahs! I miss days inside GH, memories! Nights that, i spend with my babes, Jiemin, Cecilia && Cassandra. When we are in the same room, talking cock at night, Singing song, Disturbing *ahpong (inside joke). Hahs, i hope i won't drift you all, I promise that i will jiap you all when you 3 babes discharge, esp. LIMJIEMIN. Hahs! && i am so writing a letter to you all. Jiemin will be staying back tml with me, Many things to talk about tml! Alright, enough of all this, Today, after BK with Steffi, Ling, Jiashan, Lau, Eileen && me. We went over to Lau house to play mahjong, But only Me, Lau, Eileen && Ana join. I won most of the round! Happy, throughout the game, kept calling baby phone, still same old thing happen. I remember lying to Lau&&Eileen. Saying that Baby's phone rang, they like Wah! really? In the end, i said, no lah, joking. Lie to myself cannot? happy awhile cannot? LOL, made me look so darn emo! After that, went over to void deck, talk to ana, after that home. Something was wrong with my fcuking phone, couldnt reply sms, and can't even pick up phone! Then around, 6+ went over to find cousin, as his parent got praying for 7th month, so i went along. Then after that went to eat, reached home at around 9+? Cousin send me home, as he wanted to visit my parents too. Haized, I miss Baby so much! How i hope he is here by my side, Baby. I miss you, Come back soon, 23 october 2009. Or maybe earlier if your father willing to pay the bond, i have the urge to find a job, then after that give the money to your father then he bail you out. I can't stand the days without you. But, What your father told your Po was right, let you stay inside a few days, or weeks. Let you know how to change, then he might choose to bail you out. Baby, I hope you can really change this time. Do it for me, will you? You promised me many things after we discharge. Like, go on a Holiday, Married, Rent a house all this. Although, married may seems very funny. && i never put much hope in it, cause i ain't that pure to believe that, we will get married, as i think that, you aren't ready for commitment. You still want to play, Not serious with me. =( Haized, But i hope you will really make up your mind. You aren't young anymore. Time to get mature, No more fighting life. No more slacking life, No more ''Diao here and there stuffs'', No more 1 on 1 stuff. Just lead a normal life, that is what you promise me. Will you really do it this time? Haiz, Baby i am still here waiting for you to change. =) Yellow ribbon, significant that i will give you time to change. Ever heard of the yellow ribbon story? I will write inside the Diary i gave you. You will always be the one i love baby! Muacks!

2009-08-19T14:46:00.001+08:00

It's the third day without you by my side, Not used to it, Vexed. Really vexed. I don't know why, Today i have a very strong feeling, that i will see you, i don't know if its true, But, i just really hope that miracle will occur and happen today, Dont want to spend our anniversary alone. :( It's sucks! Daddy is great today, he bought my favourite food today, and bought a sugar donut which i requested for. As it was baby's favourite. But, Baby isn't here to share the food with me. =( Haized, i miss baby! I hope miracle will happen. =D Baby, Iloveyou! I am still waiting for you.

2009-08-18T22:33:00.001+08:00

Baby, it's already 2 days since you are gone, kept calling your phone. Messaging you, but you just didn't reply. Today ana came over to my house pei me talk cock. After ana left, i slept at home, then went over to tampines buy some stuff. Then now, blogging here. I am missing you so damn much baby! =( Come back soon will you? Iloveyou! Imissyou many! Hope to receive your letter soon!

2009-08-18T12:17:00.000+08:00

Lau: don sad. lau pei u
Me: Laright, i won't be sad. Thanks for being there, appreciate that. =）
JOANNE: gal , u must be strong (=
Me: I will be strong, thanks! IMY
Lau:i'll be there for you. laulau
Me: LOL, Thanks! xD
kubaobao: lastly, i love you
kubaobao: would never do unfaithful things behind you. cause i do treat you like a friend who i care alot. i apologise for being too close with him. if in any further chance, i will try to stay far from him.
kubaobao: maybe i really am too close with ahsong and i sometime i'm just too afraid that i'm thinking too much. if you really wanna mia. ok lorhs. i wish you all the best. but i hope you will understand that i
Me: LOL, okay.
KP: Hiie .. sorry to say that i like ur attitdue because you are your self .. shouldn't have change because u are UNQUINE !! Jia you ^.^
Me: You like my attitude? I should not change cause i am unique? May i know who are you? You seems familiar to me, mind telling me who are you??

2009-08-17T23:11:00.001+08:00

Well, after many things happen. I decided to come back, not MIA anymore. I live stronger now, baby i will take care of myself, please dont worry about me. I will miss you, will never do anything that will betray you, i hope when you are out, you will get to know i will always be the only one who love you the most. Feeling super upset now. You aren't with me now. 8 weeks 6 days, which means 23 october. Fuck that bitch! Saw your father today, he looks real sad can see that he care for you alot. Baby, now i miss the times when you held me in your arms cuddling me to sleep, seal me with a warmest and sweetest kiss asking me to sleep. But now, you aren't with me, Phone is really quiet now. Before you went in, i ask you to hug me. Still remember what you said, '' Wah, wo she bu de sia!'' Didn't expect you to go in, your back view was what i last saw. Baby, i am sorry that i didn't went in, i didn't want to spoil the 0.01% that you have, thats why i rather stay outside and wait for you to come out. I know i have dissapoint you cause i didnt go, i know you want me to go, I am sorry. Really, sorry. =( I didnt cry at all you know baby, i am getting stronger right? But, i really felt like crying just now, its just i kept hold back the tears. Waited for the van, saw 2 van. 1 van didn't see anything. 2nd van, I think i saw you, i called you, did you hear? I miss you. Do you know? I felt so empty,without you by my side. Please come back to me now! You hear me? I say now! Your dad might be looking money for you, because can see that he really cares about you. Baby, promise me that you will change for me and for your father alright? I don't really care how much your family hate me because of what your PO said to them! Okay, relationship is between us. Not theirs, they don't have the right to interfer! & i know that, i never influence you to turn bad. That's not true! I really need you now, i don't want to cry to bed every night, it sucks! So please, return back soon to me. && i ain't going MIA anymore. I post everyday in this blog, i miss you baby. I really do miss you.

2009-08-14T13:28:00.001+08:00

To people out there concerning me, this is for you.

-PingPing, darling thanks alot for being there for me. Your help is what i really appreciate most, seriously. Too many things to say but, i cant seems to say out anything. I feel really useless. There are too much things that i cant share with people. Too many people that dont trust me. Too many, too many things unsaid. But i really appreciate you being there! I really do appreciate, but i am still going to MIA, hide away from anyone of you. I wont pick up any unknown numbers, but you still can text me. I will reply if i feel like. Do take care darling.

-Justine, your like a elder brother to me, or even a best of best friend to me. Giving me advices when i quarrelled with my Boyfriend. Telling me to last long with him cause you said me and my Boyfriend were meant to be together. =) was really thrilled to hear people saying me and my Boyfriend are meant to be together. Seriously. When i told you i wanna MIA, you immedietely scold me. Like how a parent scold his/her child when they do wrong things. I didnt reply, because MIA is really the best solution. My Boyfriend thought i have a crush on you. I am not blaming you either, its just his thinking. Dont be mad at him alright? Cause, i really do love him. Dont hurt him. I beg you, please. And, so many things happen recently. That made my head going crazy, i cannot stand it. No matter what, i will treat you upon my elder brother, even if you are going to ignore me.But, meanwhile, i am still on MIA. Do take care elder brother.

-Ana, Girl although we have drited alot already, but no worries i still treat you upon my TWIINIIEX. Cause, once we used to be so close. Many things happen around me, i cant say out. Not because i dont trust you. Is because, i find that everything is only evolving around me thats all? Didnt know what to say, what to do. MIA was the best policy. Receieved your text, didnt reply cause this time round, I am sure to MIA. No joking matter. So, i hope you respect my idea. You can still text me if you want, but i might not reply. Do take care girl!

-Joanne Lau, Lau, thanks for being there with me during school times. I guess only during school time, you see a hyper jacq and sometimes sleepy Jacq. But, what i want to say to you is, soon i be having MIA i got so many factors to think of before i really come back from MIA. You come school regularly, after my discharge. i might not go school that often. Do take care lau.

-Elieen Sim, Eileen uh! Although we are not that close, but still thank you for standing there with me too. I wish you to be happy with your boyfriend. =) I hope things will get better, after i come back from MIA? LOL, hopefully. i will think of you all de. Remember of me okay? Do take care eileen.

-Cecilia, 2nd Babe, although we might have drited too. But,still there are memories together with you. I miss you alot. Haven seen you this few days, but sad to say is. I going MIA, which means thats You still wont have to see me. Thats sad. =) But, i be back once i settle and sort out all my thinking. Babe. && do take care babe!

-Jiemin, 3rd Babe, i can say inside this 3 babe. You are the only one whom i can show all my emotion out, let out everything infront of you. cause you are the only great listener among all of them. You never fail to disappoint me, you never fail to give me the warmth when i need it, i love you many. But, i am also going to MIA from you. I cant share it with you this time. Sorry. But, i promise. We wont drift. && how about my discharge wish? Do take care babe!

-Cassandra, smallest babe actually i dont have much things to say to you. But, 1 major thing is. At times, i will get angry with you because you and ahsong every close. i dont know how to say. Partly of the reason is this too, i have to sort things out really carefully! I am not blaming you or what. It's just that.. I dont like. Just like you and the other girl like that. So, i am going MIA. Do take care, babe.

-Haters, people who hated me. This is the time that you should be happy. Cause i am doing a major change! Like it or not, up to you!

Lastly but not the least, the guy who have my heart and the guy whom i love the most.
-ZSQ, I dont know why our relationship is always on and off. We can be the best couple for this moment, But in another second we will become enemies. Doesnt it sucks? Our problems lies on me? I gave you attitude? I guess this is just excuse. Is it wrong to look at Boyfriend playing computer games? And then laugh at him? Is it wrong? Do you have to blow up? What do you treat me as? Shouted at me like as though there are no people. Have you wonder how heartbroken i am? You dont, remember how i walked you out just now over there? How my heart break into little pieces? You never understand how much this hurts. I bet, you never understand. You asked me go and think what i should do. But the problem is, what have i done wrong? I will go and think. Okay, after i finish resting and thinking, i tell you is it your fault or my fault. Meanwhile, call as much as you like. =) And, in this period of time, think through. Am i the one who you really love? Think through alright? And, when you are in SOL, do remember that, i still take you upon my Boyfriend, I wont do stuff that is unfaithful to you. Believe it or not. Up to you! Take care, baby.

2009-08-12T13:35:00.000+08:00

Going MIA for a period of time, wont be replying messages, and answering any call from now. Sorry to people who really care for me. Tired of the rubbish i have around me, got to sort out my thinking. Got to really really sort things out. Nothing to say now. Wont be posting so often too i guess? Bye people!

2009-08-11T21:21:00.000+08:00

They say i need to change my attitude, cause it sucks to the max. But, i dont give a damn, because that is who i am. Why must i change because of the comment you all made? i know what i am doing, I ain't a small girl anymore. As time pass, i grow more mature. In this world, who do not have attitude? People keep saying that, i am a trouble maker, because i will find people trouble at the slightest mistake they made. Well, how much do you all know me? Do you all think i have time to make so much problem? And then settle it all one by one? I ain't that free to do all this shit. If people want to find my trouble, you people think that i will be their puppet and let them say? Well, I ain't that dumb! And people, i am always in the wrong no matter what i do, what on earth have i fucking do wrong? May i ask? Even when i did slightly change abit, who knows? No one knows, its just always my fault, my fault and still MY FUCKING FAULT! Everyone has different attitude, just that, i happen to have a bad attitude, so what? Judge a book by it's cover? Sickening! Whenever i tell a lie, and you people found out. You all will blame me, yes! It's my fault that i lie! But how about when i tell the truth even when the fault is on me? I will still get the same thing. What rubbish is this? Have you all ever think of my feelings? No, How about when i am angry. But, no one will ever come and comfort me with all their whole heart! Come and go, come and go! Friends are like that, Familys are like that, even Boyfriend also like that. I am fuming mad now! I don't know what to do now! Everything has changed, I have changed. But who knows? No one gives me encouragement. What is true friends? What is TRUST? Who i have to share my secrets with? No one have the patient to hear me out. Forget it, i don't know what to say. I am stress, really stress. Really tired, Have you ever understand how i feel whenever i walk away? Did you ever tried to chase back? You didn't. Tired of everything!

2009-08-11T00:36:00.001+08:00

Okay, like finally blogger is back to normal. Happy! well, just finish making my blog. i am tired now, so i post like maybe tomorrow yeah?

2009-08-07T11:10:00.000+08:00

LOL, so effing bored now! grrr, and i cant seems to reply any of the tag in my tagboard. LOL, but thanks for the concern all. xD well, baby. your tag will be replied here. I webcam with my Girlfriend la. not some guys la. =/ Trust me la can? =D

2009-08-02T22:07:00.000+08:00

Wee, had a heart to heart talk with baby. So happy la, than talked about his ex girlfriend. Many things lor, we both never thought that we would walk that far. =) Cause starting, we are only thinking of playing each other. then, when i went in girls home surprizely. he waited for me. many things happen la. But still, we both are still standing here. walking with each other. =) LOL, didnt know we will still patched things up right. Hahs, remembered of someone that he said make me turn off. didnt know that she was so kp. Didnt know so many things. =D but i guess, this was the best heart to heart talk i ever have with him. xD

2009-08-02T22:03:00.000+08:00

Blogger sucks to the max now, might be changing to xanga? livejournel or so? stupid blogger, hurry fix your problem la! cannot do this and that! smlj?